My dilemma

With all the recent counsel that’s been coming out about healthy living, exercize, balanced diet, etc. I’ve found myself just a little stumped. You see, I consider myself a pretty healthy person! I exercize daily, I eat a pretty balanced diet (yes, all three meals) and though there are some things I have an allergy to that I might need to find a way to substitute (i.e. fish & eggs) I think those who know me will say that I actually eat healthy. The thing is, I’ve been getting sick over and over and over again – I just got over a relapse of that flu that knocked me out for 4 days. – Though thankfully it only lasted 2 days this time around and I didn’t pass out. TYJ!

I’ve been thinking, you know how they have the “ideal weight” or size, or whatever? Well, I’ve noticed, and perhaps this is just me being very wrong (which happens – heh), but I’ve seen that often women will fight so hard to get to a certain size/weight, only to constantly be struggling to stay at that size. Whereas say they put on a few more pounds or kilos (which is double – I know), they might not be at their ideal size and/or weight, but it seems it’s easier for their body to just be at that size. – And it’s easier for them to not have to struggle so much to maintain that weight/size. I’m not talking about people who aren’t keeping a healthy life-style, I’m talking about people who are generally eating healthy, watching their diet, exercizing, etc. – It seems, to me at least, that their body feels more comfortable at a certain weight, and will stick to that. Most women seem to fluctuate between a certain weight anyways, so what stops us from just letting our body be the weight it wants to be, even if it is perhaps a little above the “ideal/model” weight. (Again, speaking healthy here.)

I was looking at some pics of times gone by and happened on some that were taken shortly after my appendectomy. I lost @ 15 pounds at the time, though in looking at the pics I still feel there was chunk on me that, if I was trying to reach that model/ideal weight/size then I’d have to lose it. In contrast to today (well, not today really, I lose weight when I get sick so these 2 days finds me with several pounds less than 2 days ago) I’m generally heavier than I was at that time, though a few sizes smaller – which goes to prove that you can’t go by weight, and you also can’t go by sizes sometimes, but really, who’s to judge how much weight your body needs? It just seems as if we’re getting tricked into the mentality of what the media pumps us with, when really, the Lord made our bodies so perfect, if we just treat it well and take good care of it, then it should respond likewise.

Which takes me back to my dilemma! - What am I doing wrong?!!! My only theory is that I’ve dropped below what my body feels it needs in order to be healthy, and likewise it’s getting back at me, but then other than muscle (which I will put back on once I starting working out – I’m too weak now – Ha!) I’d need to start eating unhealthy to put on fat.

Oh well, it’s definitely something I’m asking the Lord about, but does anyone have any thoughts on the matter? What have you found about your ideal weight/size? I’m interested!